i think a lot of us have been through things that aren’t the same but maybe they help us understand each other better
[ he thinks of yelena, most of all, who wouldn’t have ever learned the skills she’s on trial for if she had a choice — if her parents weren’t sleeper agents — if she weren’t taken from everything she knew as a kid and forced to learn, to survive. ]
thanks i’m sorry too that you know what it’s like, and that i let stephen do that i might have been able to stop him but wouldn’t you want to know, if you were hurting people?
[ Once, she wouldn’t have cared. Or- she would have accepted it as part of her path. She would have covered herself rather than admitting this to a stranger, who could use it against her. ]
Stephen shut me down when I brought it to him, but I possess physical and magical capabilities that make me a possibility, I think.
Not a clean match, though I have my doubts about whether we’re looking at clean matches to begin with. But I shouldn’t be ruled out.
If there are deliberate misdirections, it's hard to feel certain of anything. Though I can't imagine the Shepherd truly cares about a fair murder game.
[ And then, a momentary follow-up, ]
I'm sorry I wanted to use you as furniture last month.
Maybe next time the powers that be assign us compulsory roles you won't be stuck hand-feeding eggs on toast to my [ cult boyfriend?? real boyfriend?? she's not processing this right now. ]
i was wandering around malaysia you probably don’t have that it’s one of the places jackasses like me go to find themselves i guess i was mostly just doing drugs and coasting there was this guy, started talking to me about a study a trial drug that could make me stronger, better felt like a miracle a one in a million chance to show everyone i wasn’t just a fuck up that i could be more
anyway it turns out they were just looking for people nobody would miss if they died during the trial which they thought i did
i wasn’t supposed to make it out with powers they were gonna perfect the formula or whatever and give it to someone better but i’m the only one it worked on, in the end
[ you're so right king she has no idea what a malaysia is ]
I'm sorry. That's awful.
Where I'm from, people come by their powers in different ways... Some are born with them through family lines, some devote their lives to studying magic. Some make pacts with devils or fae, for better and worse.
Mine were god-given, but--I was kidnapped, when I was young. My memories stolen from me, groomed to better serve my dark goddess.
I've renounced her, since coming to this place. But I'm still learning how to live with the things I did when I followed her. The things I was capable of.
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a lot of us have been through things that aren’t the same
but maybe they help us understand each other better
[ he thinks of yelena, most of all, who wouldn’t have ever learned the skills she’s on trial for if she had a choice — if her parents weren’t sleeper agents — if she weren’t taken from everything she knew as a kid and forced to learn, to survive. ]
thanks
i’m sorry too
that you know what it’s like, and that i let stephen do that
i might have been able to stop him
but wouldn’t you want to know, if you were hurting people?
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[ Once, she wouldn’t have cared. Or- she would have accepted it as part of her path. She would have covered herself rather than admitting this to a stranger, who could use it against her. ]
Stephen shut me down when I brought it to him, but I possess physical and magical capabilities that make me a possibility, I think.
Not a clean match, though I have my doubts about whether we’re looking at clean matches to begin with. But I shouldn’t be ruled out.
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i thought most of the evidence last round was bullshit anyway
we might as well count ourselves in
[ sad high five. ]
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[ And then, a momentary follow-up, ]
I'm sorry I wanted to use you as furniture last month.
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thanks
i didn't really deal well with being like
the bottomest of the bottom
even though that's pretty much my lot in life
or it was
before the god powers
anyway
i appreciate it
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to your internship supervisor.
How did your powers come to you?
1/2
[ crying. ]
i was wandering around malaysia
you probably don’t have that
it’s one of the places jackasses like me go to find themselves i guess
i was mostly just doing drugs and coasting
there was this guy, started talking to me about a study
a trial drug that could make me stronger, better
felt like a miracle
a one in a million chance to show everyone i wasn’t just a fuck up
that i could be more
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if they died during the trial
which they thought i did
i wasn’t supposed to make it out with powers
they were gonna perfect the formula or whatever and give it to someone better
but i’m the only one it worked on, in the end
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I'm sorry. That's awful.
Where I'm from, people come by their powers in different ways... Some are born with them through family lines, some devote their lives to studying magic. Some make pacts with devils or fae, for better and worse.
Mine were god-given, but--I was kidnapped, when I was young. My memories stolen from me, groomed to better serve my dark goddess.
I've renounced her, since coming to this place. But I'm still learning how to live with the things I did when I followed her. The things I was capable of.
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but thanks
[ meanwhile, whoa, that is some fantasy-land shit. ]
you should talk to yelena after this
i think you guys might have a lot in common
goddess stuff aside
me and my whole team
we're trying to learn to live with whatever we've done
and be better than who we were, too