[ a long pause, punctuated by three blinking dots to tell stephen he’s not running, just typing and retyping. ]
on a good day i can take on three super soldiers and a widow without breaking a sweat invulnerability super strength bent walker’s cap shield like a fuckin taco plus matter control? if that’s a thing and i think it’s called telekinesis? when you throw stuff with your mind and uh
[ He thinks about the clean cauterisations. The rumbling theory that it wasn’t metal but magic that did the job — ]
director de fontaine says it’s like the power of one million exploding suns figure that’s why i can melt anything i look at too long
then on a bad day i can send anyone and everyone into their worst nightmare they space out or disappear entirely like the blip almost drowned nyc in shadow a few months before i got here
sorry for not saying so sooner i didn’t want to make things worse for everyone after tony and wanda stepped up but i guess i did anyway, huh?
[ It tracks. So much of it tracks. The cauterization, the blindfold (shadow), the messy removal of heads. The way Saber could have had his removed, pulled by force through the bars, while he's dangling so high in the air.
Put on a plate to stop it making a mess on Ani's floor. The tidied kitchen. ]
bucky and yelena already know what i can do they’ll try to stop you i think, if they can they’d do pretty much anything for me even if it doesnt make sense
so i’ll probably just lay here try not to spin the fuck out you know
i don’t know that i did it i don’t know that i didn’t do it i guess nobody does until time’s up but i wouldn’t have needed any tricks or weapons not with what i can do
[ He feels the same way about his own power - it's why he hasn't suspected himself yet in the deaths that have arisen so far. There was no trace of magic in that first set of murders, but there is now. Magic all over these ones, August's name in too many whispers. So why the brute force that first time, when it's clear there's magic now? Unless for the sake of strategy, Stephen would never have used a knife or and axe or a hammer and nails where he could have burned a hole right through his victim's chest.
None of it makes sense. None of it. And Ani's words swim around in his head, louder against the weakening strength of evidence that felt so solid before slipping from him like so much sand. ]
If you don't want to do this now, I won't force you I haven't seen your powers at work And I haven't lived with them
There are only two spaces to fill in the cage and least five more wolves to catch If you don't think this was you, I'll wait
[ There's too much at stake to cause fresh fractures based on fresh suspicion. Mistake or not, they'll only find out when more heads roll. ]
[ it’s like some sick game, orchestrated not by stephen but by this place. he doesn’t want to be accused any more than he wants to have done it. yelena told him to quiet down, as did embry, but now she’s saying she’d want to be caught, if it was her. ]
those anons on the network think a superhero did it homelander’s talking about a rumour
i think you should let people have all the facts before they decide which one of us is the wolf faith and yelena are both up for less evidence i can take it
[ He's held the fate of the universe in two shaking hands: he can hold the undue suffering of a man who doesn't deserve this, and the hatred of the people who know that to be true. ]
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on a good day
i can take on three super soldiers and a widow without breaking a sweat
invulnerability
super strength
bent walker’s cap shield like a fuckin taco
plus matter control? if that’s a thing
and i think it’s called telekinesis? when you throw stuff with your mind
and uh
[ He thinks about the clean cauterisations. The rumbling theory that it wasn’t metal but magic that did the job — ]
director de fontaine says it’s like the power of one million exploding suns
figure that’s why i can melt anything i look at too long
then on a bad day
i can send anyone and everyone into their worst nightmare
they space out or disappear entirely
like the blip
almost drowned nyc in shadow a few months before i got here
sorry for not saying so sooner
i didn’t want to make things worse for everyone after tony and wanda stepped up
but i guess i did anyway, huh?
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Put on a plate to stop it making a mess on Ani's floor. The tidied kitchen. ]
It's ok. We're fixing it now.
But we have to consider you for the Alpha.
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that sounds pretty bad
[ going to be sick AGAIN ]
i knew about adrian last night
and that saber did it
all before the wolf kills
and i can fly
if i had to get up there
should i um
what should i do
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Or I can speak to people on your behalf if you'd prefer not to have to lay it out for them
Then take the day
Unless anything changes, we'll talk to everyone else before the vote.
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bucky and yelena already know what i can do
they’ll try to stop you i think, if they can
they’d do pretty much anything for me
even if it doesnt make sense
so i’ll probably just lay here
try not to spin the fuck out
you know
[ the usual 😔 ]
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And I'm sorry. If this really has happened to you.
If I find any reason to discount you I'll let you know
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i’m not some psycho fuck
i’m just depressed
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If the capability aligns, we have to ask the question
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okay
then ask it
i don’t know that i did it
i don’t know that i didn’t do it
i guess nobody does until time’s up
but i wouldn’t have needed any tricks or weapons
not with what i can do
that’s all i’ve got
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None of it makes sense. None of it. And Ani's words swim around in his head, louder against the weakening strength of evidence that felt so solid before slipping from him like so much sand. ]
If you don't want to do this now, I won't force you
I haven't seen your powers at work
And I haven't lived with them
There are only two spaces to fill in the cage and least five more wolves to catch
If you don't think this was you, I'll wait
[ There's too much at stake to cause fresh fractures based on fresh suspicion. Mistake or not, they'll only find out when more heads roll. ]
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[ it’s like some sick game, orchestrated not by stephen but by this place. he doesn’t want to be accused any more than he wants to have done it. yelena told him to quiet down, as did embry, but now she’s saying she’d want to be caught, if it was her. ]
those anons on the network think a superhero did it
homelander’s talking about a rumour
i think
you should let people have all the facts before they decide which one of us is the wolf
faith and yelena are both up for less evidence
i can take it
sorry
i know that puts you in a shitty spot too
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[ He's held the fate of the universe in two shaking hands: he can hold the undue suffering of a man who doesn't deserve this, and the hatred of the people who know that to be true. ]
I'll be as objective as I can
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[ a long pause. ]
sorry i was such a dick to you, the first time we talked
i mean
you were an asshole
but
i’m not saying this right
what i mean is
i don’t do so hot with authority
nobody with it ever looked out for me
so thanks
for looking out for me