Thanks for writing me back and hearing me out. I really appreciate that. No hard feelings about not writing it out – back in my day, the cursive was practically beaten into us.
And thank you for explaining a little more. It’s a relief to hear some good reasons, instead of you just being a landing pad for him to crash and burn on like I’d assumed. If it’s worth anything, I’m glad he could be there for you. Even though I was in favor of considering you, going through that “game” twice has taught me that it’s hard for everyone, the attacked, the accused, the wolves, and everyone in between. It isn’t something that can be endured alone, no matter your role in it. I came close this year, and it was...
Well. Bad. Worse than last time, and I almost died back then. I was like Jake, saved by a doctor. Hawk, actually.
That’s not to dump all my traumatic stuff on you, just to say that in the game, everything is so terrifying and urgent, it’s hard to see too far beyond yourself and the task at hand. I’d like to start over too, without death looming over us. Thank you for being open to that. Maybe we can even be friends.
P.S. - I say this with love, because he’s my friend: Embry can’t be stopped from spinning out. You kind of just have to wait until he’s finished and then remind him that you don’t hate him no matter how bad he wants you to.
i think knowing this stuff just helps us understand each other better, maybe so i don’t mind hearing about it
[ like — walker’s memories of his kid and olivia. yelena’s, of her first task as a widow. it’s better that tim tells him those things because he wants to and not because the void or the house pulled it out of him, too. ]
sorry that all happened to you staying the obvious but it seems like this place has a real dark side
[ as for embry, well, no comment. bob’s pretty sure people letting him spin out untended is how he ended up as prone to spiralling as he is. and maybe bob didn’t help, when he followed embry out into the forest that day — but danny johnson didn’t die in that cage, so maybe he did. ]
have you finished your christmas shopping? i could help carry stuff if you’re braving the market tomorrow i’m really bad at haggling and holding onto the coins though
It isn’t all bad. I've learned a lot that I would have never known back home, and met a lot of amazing people. But when it's bad...well, you saw the games.
I've got a little bit left! a second pair of eyes on things could be a big help, since mine aren't so good to begin with.
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And thank you for explaining a little more. It’s a relief to hear some good reasons, instead of you just being a landing pad for him to crash and burn on like I’d assumed. If it’s worth anything, I’m glad he could be there for you. Even though I was in favor of considering you, going through that “game” twice has taught me that it’s hard for everyone, the attacked, the accused, the wolves, and everyone in between. It isn’t something that can be endured alone, no matter your role in it. I came close this year, and it was...
Well. Bad. Worse than last time, and I almost died back then. I was like Jake, saved by a doctor. Hawk, actually.
That’s not to dump all my traumatic stuff on you, just to say that in the game, everything is so terrifying and urgent, it’s hard to see too far beyond yourself and the task at hand. I’d like to start over too, without death looming over us. Thank you for being open to that. Maybe we can even be friends.
P.S. - I say this with love, because he’s my friend: Embry can’t be stopped from spinning out. You kind of just have to wait until he’s finished and then remind him that you don’t hate him no matter how bad he wants you to.
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so i don’t mind hearing about it
[ like — walker’s memories of his kid and olivia. yelena’s, of her first task as a widow. it’s better that tim tells him those things because he wants to and not because the void or the house pulled it out of him, too. ]
sorry that all happened to you
staying the obvious but it seems like this place has a real dark side
[ as for embry, well, no comment. bob’s pretty sure people letting him spin out untended is how he ended up as prone to spiralling as he is. and maybe bob didn’t help, when he followed embry out into the forest that day — but danny johnson didn’t die in that cage, so maybe he did. ]
have you finished your christmas shopping?
i could help carry stuff if you’re braving the market tomorrow
i’m really bad at haggling and holding onto the coins though
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It isn’t all bad. I've learned a lot that I would have never known back home, and met a lot of amazing people. But when it's bad...well, you saw the games.
I've got a little bit left! a second pair of eyes on things could be a big help, since mine aren't so good to begin with.
🎀
a friend date, i mean
which is just called hanging out
[ this is why he said he was bad at talking. ]
thanks for giving me a third or fourth chance, anyway