[ even the first time, overwhelmed by his power and val’s assurances, he hadn’t wanted to hurt anybody.
bob wants to say haki seems cool. instead, he can’t stop himself from chasing another, terrible thought. ]
a lot of people thought i could have been the one to hurt you stephen got up in front of everyone and explained how i would have done it it’s hard not to think about it
[that, at least, koby can say wholeheartedly -- bob's attempts to get out of the game were motivated by fear and, he suspects, a deep conviction he wouldn't be of use.
koby can understand that, perhaps deeper than bob knows.
the conversation shifts, and koby is reminded yet again of the long-reaching ripple effect of the games. what's worse -- to be killed by someone you trusted, or to be accused of murdering an ally, a friend, and spend weeks wondering if it could be true?]
I heard he accused you, yes. And a lot of people agreed, or seemed convinced.
I also heard you took the accusation bravely. I know that doesn't help much now, thinking about it, but It was an impossible place to be in, and you behaved honorably despite that.
you don’t have to apologise or make me feel better about sitting there with my head in my hands you’re the one who got hurt
i just wanted you to know because it’s part of the reason why the idea of me doing practice rounds with you and the guys is off the table it wasn’t me that hurt you in the end but i could have done it just as easy as stephen said could still do it on accident i can’t risk that
I know I don't have to. But I want to. Because if it were me, I'd feel horrible. I felt bad enough with Dom accusing me, and that wasn't taken seriously at all. If someone seriously accused me of killing someone and I had nothing to say in my defense, because I had no way of knowing, it'd be torture. And I don't want you to feel that, especially when it wasn't your fault.
[a pause, taking it in, turning it around in his head.]
That makes sense. I won't ask you for that again. I'm not afraid that you'd hurt me, but they're not my powers. They're yours. That's why I'm not asking just anyone. I wouldn't want to hurt someone either, even if they wanted me to.
I do want to see if I can do more push-ups than you, though. I think I can. Maybe.
[ he actually, impossibly, laughs at that, and it’s enough for him to skip over the truth no one has questioned since the votes (about the bad powers that go with the good, the darkness he supposedly wields.) ]
thanks koby i’m sure you’ll give me a run for my money especially when my shitty form is gonna give jake an aneurysm
[it's not that the thought hasn't occurred to koby -- it has, and has been promptly set aside and ignored, because as far as he's concerned, bob proved himself by wanting to give up, but not. and they're no longer in the midst of a game that could take those powers -- good or bad -- and use them against bob's will.
so instead: roasting jake seresin in his absence, a much better usage of time.]
I think that's good for him, every once in a while. Ani might call it "enrichment". I told him I didn't know what protein powder was and I thought he was going to have an emotional breakdown for a moment.
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thanks koby
[ even the first time, overwhelmed by his power and val’s assurances, he hadn’t wanted to hurt anybody.
bob wants to say haki seems cool. instead, he can’t stop himself from chasing another, terrible thought. ]
a lot of people thought i could have been the one to hurt you
stephen got up in front of everyone and explained how i would have done it
it’s hard not to think about it
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[that, at least, koby can say wholeheartedly -- bob's attempts to get out of the game were motivated by fear and, he suspects, a deep conviction he wouldn't be of use.
koby can understand that, perhaps deeper than bob knows.
the conversation shifts, and koby is reminded yet again of the long-reaching ripple effect of the games. what's worse -- to be killed by someone you trusted, or to be accused of murdering an ally, a friend, and spend weeks wondering if it could be true?]
I heard he accused you, yes.
And a lot of people agreed, or seemed convinced.
I also heard you took the accusation bravely.
I know that doesn't help much now, thinking about it, but
It was an impossible place to be in, and you behaved honorably despite that.
It makes sense why it'd stick, though.
I'm sorry.
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or make me feel better about sitting there with my head in my hands
you’re the one who got hurt
i just wanted you to know because it’s part of the reason why the idea of me doing practice rounds with you and the guys is off the table
it wasn’t me that hurt you in the end
but i could have done it just as easy as stephen said
could still do it on accident
i can’t risk that
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But I want to. Because if it were me, I'd feel horrible.
I felt bad enough with Dom accusing me, and that wasn't taken seriously at all.
If someone seriously accused me of killing someone and I had nothing to say in my defense, because I had no way of knowing, it'd be torture.
And I don't want you to feel that, especially when it wasn't your fault.
[a pause, taking it in, turning it around in his head.]
That makes sense.
I won't ask you for that again.
I'm not afraid that you'd hurt me, but they're not my powers. They're yours.
That's why I'm not asking just anyone. I wouldn't want to hurt someone either, even if they wanted me to.
I do want to see if I can do more push-ups than you, though.
I think I can. Maybe.
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thanks koby
i’m sure you’ll give me a run for my money
especially when my shitty form is gonna give jake an aneurysm
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so instead: roasting jake seresin in his absence, a much better usage of time.]
I think that's good for him, every once in a while.
Ani might call it "enrichment".
I told him I didn't know what protein powder was and I thought he was going to have an emotional breakdown for a moment.
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i wish i was there for that
you’re pretty wily, huh, koby
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